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memoir

Bookmark that, a memoir

by Speccy McSpec

The tale of how an exhausted middle aged woman used the internet to cope with major life changes:

* beauty websites- no, she didn’t look ten years younger

* health websites- depressing as all get out

* parenting websites- maybe she was just odd?

Discover how she learned to cope with blogging, bereavement and lacking the energy to find out what ‘monetise’ involves.

Just how did this frumpy, unemployed, everywoman become a well known humourist, advocate for those with rare diseases, and wife of Liam Neeson?

Do major film stars really use internet dating sites?

What happened to Speccy and Spurs Fan? How did he end up with Kylie Minogue?

How did Girl1 become President of Ireland at 24?

What role did the internet play in Girl2′s ballet career?

Prepare to LOL, <3 and CRBT

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From February 2012.

Write on Edge: remembeRED prompt: sell us your memoir in 200 words or less. In the interests of full disclosure, it must be said that everything from ‘become a’ to ‘Prepare’ is fiction. I know you’re shocked by that.

Pic of lovely Liam, and other fun info here

placebos and quackery

ME dominates my life. It impacts on every decision I make, or whether I am able to make a decision at all. If I rest now, can I do that later? Will I be able to get a seat? Will I have to talk to people? It’s been a long time since I’ve actually read a newspaper, rather than just looking at the pictures.

I am constantly fatigued, my brain feels like mush. I have regular muscular pain, sore throat, sore head. I have a walking stick. I potter along, but some days even turning in the bed is a challenge. When opening both eyes is too much to expect, I’ll not be getting up any time soon.

ME dominates all our lives- my children think nothing of a parent in bed when they come home from school, or having to make sure I’m awake before they go. Spurs Fan does most of the supermarket shopping because I can’t think, or process, or cope with crowds of people.

I keep wanting us to get a second car, but really, driving exhausts me so much that we needn’t bother our heads. Bundles of important looking post can sit about unopened for too long while I can’t begin to imagine how to deal with the possible contents. I’m always baffled by children needing to eat, or even more grubby clothes. Did I not put on a wash yesterday? Last week I genuinely couldn’t tell whether the kettle was switched on or not (think of all the clues- noise, light, location of switch. No, no idea) and simply shrugged and left it for another while.

Every morning, along with the anti mad tablets, I down a handful of food supplements. Omega this, Vitamin that, co enzyme the other. I do feel that these help a little. If I’m fooling myself that’s grand. I’ve tried plenty of the ‘energising’, ‘vitalising’ products out there and know that most have no impact on me whatsoever, so I’ll stick with those that haven’t disappointed me yet.

I’ll try things if there’s a possibility they’ll help me feel better. I suppose I’m vulnerable, but when there are no ‘medical’ treatments available, it seems like anything is worth a go. I’m not going to pay thousands of pounds for mystery interventions, but CBT, pacing and resting haven’t brought me back to myself either. I don’t expect to ever have the level of energy I used to have, but I’d like to less debilitated.

I met someone at a conference who uses an ME ‘remedy’. He’s back at work, his demanding work. He drives hundreds of miles a week, takes exercise and is still coherent enough to spend time with his family. Had he been at a stand, selling a ‘cure’ I’d have ignored him. As it was, we were in the food queue and got to chatting about all sorts before he mentioned his own rare disease, ‘best described as a bit like ME’. I wasn’t wearing an ME label. I don’t think my health condition is displayed in a neon sign over my head. I wasn’t using the stick that day. He couldn’t have known to ‘target’ me. He’s worked with some of my colleagues, and seems to be a genuine chap. I took the decision to try it out. (Stop laughing at me! All my decisions are made through and because of my ME addled mind.)

So, a month later, I’ve remembered to get some of the ‘remedy’. It could be a huge con. I could easily be being fooled out of the £7.50 for a sample pack. I’m trying not to be too hopeful, but I’ll let you know how I get on.

I’d so love to be able to think again.

image from The Quack Doctor

Pitching a memoir

Bookmark that, a memoir

by Speccy McSpec

The tale of how an exhausted middle aged woman used the internet to cope with major life changes:

* beauty websites- no, she didn’t look ten years younger

* health websites- depressing as all get out

* parenting websites- maybe she was just odd?

Discover how she learned to cope with blogging, bereavement and lacking the energy to find out what ‘monetise’ involves.

Just how did this frumpy, unemployed, everywoman become a well known humourist, advocate for those with rare diseases, and wife of Liam Neeson?

Do major film stars really use internet dating sites?

What happened to Speccy and Spurs Fan? How did he end up with Kylie Minogue?

How did Girl1 become President of Ireland at 24?

What role did the internet play in Girl2′s ballet career?

Prepare to LOL, <3 and CRBT

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.

Write on Edge: remembeRED prompt: sell us your memoir in 200 words or less. In the interests of full disclosure, it must be said that everything from ‘become a’ to ‘Prepare’ is fiction. I know you’re shocked by that.

Pic of lovely Liam, and other fun info here

I’m trying, really

Gracious (adjective):

  1. kind and warmly courteous
  2. tactful
  3. compassionate
  4. indulgent
  5. charming and graceful
  6. elegant and with good taste

Gracious (interjection): expression of surprise, contempt, outrage, disgust, boredom, frustration.

“I think sometimes it is more important to be gracious than to win.” Dorothy Kilgallen

“Deliberate with caution, but act with decision; and yield with graciousness, or oppose with firmness.”     Charles Hole

“To refuse graciously is to confer a favour.”  Publilius Syrus

“Gracious to all, to none subservient, without offense he spoke the word he meant.”  Thomas Bailey Aldrich

My favourite, and a bit of a mantra at the minute, is the one I posted last week…

“Be pretty if you can, be witty if you must, but be gracious if it kills you” Elsie de Wolfe

When I need an interjection, ‘gracious’ is never going to be strong enough. I’m aiming for the adjective.