Often, I am either asleep or anxious. I’m getting better at putting myself ‘out there’, less afraid of saying the wrong thing, confident in my knowledge and experience, but still, the anxiety sometimes wins. I either shut down totally or burble non stop. You know this.
Support, calming reinforcement, can come from the most unexpected places.
Of course it’s a form letter. Every organisation or individual who made a presentation will have received something similar. I hope everyone felt as good about it as I did. I hope FM and @imonlyslightly felt as good about it as I did.
I waved it at Spurs Fan and Dawnriser, beaming, as if it were written just for me. ‘Clear’, ‘articulate’, ‘able advocate’- he means me, he said that about me! I glowed with pride, and decided I could talk to any body, any time, no fear.
In truth, we can imagine that the reality of the thing was somewhere between his glowing remarks and my memory of the presentation, but for now, the reality is unimportant. How often do you get an official letter that actually makes you feel good? That’s not looking for money or blaming you for not being well enough to work?
A letter of thanks that gives a gift of confidence at the same time- I’m going to learn how to do that.